More about the trip to Scotland. I do this trip every year. There is one day when myself and my colleagues walk up a steep valley in the Highlands. The total ascent is only about 300m but it's quite steep and takes a considerable effort. I've done this walk on the last three occasions that we've done this trip. I have absolutely hated it. The thought of doing this walk has filled me with dread for months beforehand and has been the central subject of nightmares - really. I've dreaded it so much because it's been exhausting. My colleagues are so much fitter than me and so I have always trailed miles behind them, slowing them down and slowing down the whole visit. While they have light-footedly flown up the mountain and arrived at the top fresh-faced and ready for more, I have arrived totally out of breath, sweat pouring down my face, red-faced (though purple is probably more like it) and it's just been such an awful experience. I haven't even been able to look at the features we were supposed to be looking at because I have been so fixated on simply putting one foot in front of the other. For the last three years I have been totally embarrassed about my physical condition and the sheer effort that I have needed to get up this dammed hill.
But not any more!! This time it was different. Weighing five and a half stones less and feeling so much fitter, I had actually been looking forward to this climb. For the first time, I regarded it as a challenge to be met head-on. I really was excited at the prospect of testing myself - to see how my fitness levels had improved over the past few months. I was not to be disappointed.....
In the past I have always taken up my obvious position at the back of the party (of about 20 people). I've started last and finished last - miles behind everyone else. This year, feeling positive, I decided to position myself about half way through the group and just see how I got on......... I got to the top with only four people in front of me!!! FANTASTIC!!! That was how I felt! I arrived at the top feeling as though I could have gone on a lot further. I felt fresh. There was harly a bead of sweat on me. There was a spring in my step. I was even able to stop along the route at 'difficult' spots and assist others along the path!! I was one of the first people down too. Amazing.
Back in the vehicles afterwards, making our way back to base, I commented to a trusted colleague on my increased level of fitness and said how great I felt. I couldn't resist but let out a huge"WOOOOOOHOOOOOO!!" - I was just so excited!!
I know there are lots of reasons for wanting to lose weight - improved health, appearance, practicalities (e.g. clothes etc). But for me, my lack of fitness has always been a key driver. I know I still have a long way to go - this was after all, just a 300m climb, not exactly Everest eh?! BUT, it's a great start, it has improved my self-confidence no end and for the first time since I started this weight loss-band venture, I truly feel that I have made some real, lasting progress.
So, in case you missed it the first time round, WOOOOOOOHOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!
Hi Theresa
ReplyDeleteI am smiling reading about you climbing your mountain. What you say absolutely echoes how I feel too. Being unfit and unhealthy was my prime motivator too and although I am a way behind you I feel so much fitter too. I can now keep up with my husband who although older than me was always fitter. I used to be sooo embarrassed when we had to walk anywhere together cos I would be sweating, getting palpitations, usually crying etc cos I felt so cr*p. I feel so proud now that I can just do a normal walk and feel good, in fact a couple of times I have been ready to carry on while he has had enough.
Anyway didn't mean to rabbit on about me, wanted to say well done hun, I am so pleased for you and thanks for sharing that, it has given me a real lift!
Gil
xx
Hi Gil,
ReplyDeleteThanks very much for your comment, I'm glad you enjoyed the post! Yes, I know EXACTLY how you felt - I've done the palpitations and crying bit too. However, let's be positive - it's amazing how just a little bit of walking each day can make such a huge difference to fitness in a few months.
Keep up the good work, in just a little while you'll be running!!
Theresa